Dear
parents I am sorry that my expectations of my reality don’t adjust to the same
ones as yours.
Dear
parents I am sorry that I am actually not sorry at all that we see things in
such a different way.
Dear
parents I will never be who you want me to be, because it has nothing to do
with who I am.
Dear parents
I love you for the grounds you’ve raised me around, but I will hate you if you
don’t give me the space to create my own ones from there.
Dear
parents I understand these are different times, and that my generations ideas
has nothing to do with your generation’s ideas – I hope you understand this is
essential for my voice to be mine and not a replay of yours.
Dear parents I’ve tried drugs but that doesn’t make me stupid or not want to do anything with my life.
Dear parents
you don’t have to worry the only thing I’m addicted to is living the life I
want.
Dear
parents thanks for saying ‘yes’ more times than ‘no’ when I’ve needed it the
most, you’ve saved my life more than once.
Dear parents
I know it’s stupid, but thank you for driving me around until I got my license
I know you hate it.
Dear parents
I know you just want the best for me, and that you never cease to work hard for
my own benefit but you have to know only because you don’t have substantial proof
of my gratitude yet, it doesn’t mean it’s not there.
Dear parents
I know my education and my lifestyle consumes you economically and continuously.
It is not my intention to drain you, and one of my primal desires is to set you
free from such responsibility.
Dear
parents I don’t want to see you suffer for my ego’s lust, you have to
understand I don’t mean to pain you constantly but you pain me when you
repeatedly turn a blind eye to see the truth of what I want.
Dear parents
I am young and my freedom is the most important thing for me please don’t chain
me away from that when we don’t agree.
Dear parents
I respect you, but I don’t think I will have gained your respect until you believe
in me enough as to give me the space I need from your constant nagging that
only builds anxieties inside my torso, a constant slap on my neck.
Dear
parents my future is mine – only because you helped me get there through my
childhood and innocence doesn’t mean it is yours to rule.
Dear
parents you are the lights of my life, who are constantly on even when I try
the hardest to shut you out, and I am grateful for your strength against my tantrums
every night.
Dear
parents I am yours forever because I love you, not because I owe you.
Dear
parents I don’t know how to be a parent as much as you don’t know what it is to
be a child, and be constantly looked down at instead of directly in the eye when
most needed – which is now.
Dear parents
my worst fear is to let you down, but my greatest dream is to prove you that I
don’t need you as much as you think.
Dear
parents I don’t know where I’d be without you since you have given me
everything I’ve ever needed always, but don’t hold that over me when we fight.
Dear
parents I am not ungrateful, I just don’t want (my) life to be in debt for your
nature’s role.
Dear
parents your silence aches me more than the hardest heartbreak, but your words shouldn’t
be used against mine all the time.
Dear
parents I know it’s difficult to see me grow up but I’ll always be your little
girl whilst you don’t treat me as such.
Dear
parents I know I’ve lied to you, but please trust me when I say it wasn’t to
hurt you but to do the contrary.
Dear
parents I know you want me to be my best version of me, but I can’t always keep
up with your high expectations when I have my own for me to keep up to and that
matter more.
Dear
parents I know we don’t always get along, and that recently we only fight but I
hope one day we can meet in a place where there is no right or wrong, just
understanding and respect.
Dear
parents I’m scared you’ll stop liking me for who I’ve become or for who I like to
hang around with- I just hope you see that you are still my family even if I’ve
found another one on the streets.
Dear
parents our values will always match, and I’m a better person every day for everything
you’ve taught me, but please understand even if I try my hardest to be good, I
can fall into the trap of being bad too.
Dear
parents I am human, not a prodigal daughter that has to sit on a pedestal in
your head all the time.
Dear
parents let be me weak, as much as you want me to be strong.
Dear
parents I know you see me, so stop filtering the view with false illusions of
who you think you want to be looking at.
Dear
parents I love supporting you, so please, support me too when I don’t agree
with you.
Dear
parents don’t take it so seriously when I insult you, I know it may hurt, but
you say hurtful things too which you don’t have the right to say either only
cause you’re the “authoritarian figure.”
Dear
parents I don’t like following rules and I don’t like having people telling me
what to do, that includes you too – but understand it’s not me being against
you, it’s just me being for me.
Dear
parents the world is very cruel, and there are times when I’m scared it’ll eat
me up someday so thank you for giving me a safe place to call home when I need
a rest from it all.
Dear
parents I don’t love mom more than dad, or dad more than mom, we just connect differently
therefore my love for you is on the same level but in a different game.
Dear parents
thank you for giving me a hand to stand up when I’m bleeding on the ground, I
know whatever happens you’ll never turn your back when I’m down.
Dear
parents I fall in love with whoever I fall in love, and it’s nobody else’s business
but mine.
Dear
parents I want to give you everything, but until I do, I still need you to help
me get there.
Dear
parents you make me happy all the time, even when you stress me, but please don’t
give me the responsibility for yours, it will kill me – mine doesn’t account to
you, it’s just there.
Dear
parents things are just the way they are, stop trying to convince me your perspective
is the better one because “you’re older” and you “know more”- when the things
you know have nothing to do with the things that are now going on with me.
Dear
parents I will always listen to you and take your words very seriously as to
consider them, but don’t think I’m betraying you just cause I don’t act up on
them in the end.
Dear
parents I’m tired of this power struggle of who’s right and who’s wrong of
where I should be and I am, or stop complaining about how I do nothing when all
I do is try.
Dear
parents I love you, can you love me without so much war in between?
Dear
parents I don’t want to look back someday and feel a bullet in my chest burn every
second of the day because we never got through and don’t speak anymore in the
future’s today.
Dear parents you will always be my parents and I’ll never stop being there, I love you forever.
And last of all
Dear parents you’ll never read this, but it’s there.